(03-12-2011, 06:24 PM)VAMPkito Wrote: HYDE made not be as world-renowned or as respected as him, but HYDE will always be my personal John Lennon. His music and lyrics make my life all the more worth living, and I don't know where I'd be had I never discovered him. So if something were to happen to him, I have no idea what I would do.

Do NOT apologize for that! I feel the exact same way and when someone else says it, it makes me feel way less crazy. I had a birthday lunch last month and some friends came over who'd never really listened to any Japanese music before and I was playing a bunch of Hyde (hey, my birthday, my music, right? haha) and one guy checked out my playlist while Hyde's cover of Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds was playing and he asked who the band was and I answered without hesitation, "The love of my life." And my exboyfriend/best friend was in the room too lol. Hyde has been with me since I first started writing my book when I was 13 (though it was a pretty terrible book back then lol). When I started getting away from the teen angst stuff I was channeling and started thinking more seriously about real character development and complex plots and the human themes I wanted to address in the book is when Hyde's solo career got started. It seemed every new song he wrote was just for me and my book. Just as I was writing about something new, he would release some new single that EXACTLY mirrored what I was writing about. Back then I was a bit more resistant to it, calling it mere coincidence. It's only recently I've come to acknowledge how eerie the synchronicities were (At the core of these is the fact that my real life name is Heidi which is the best female equivalent for Hyde I can think of haha). It was like he and I were linked somehow artistically; like we were tapped into the same muse.

Hyde's music has always been there for me. When my first love let me down, Hyde's music was there. When I finally got over my first love 8 years later, Hyde's music was there. When I found new love I never thought I'd find and then lost it, Hyde's music was there. I never really acknowledged it until very recently. When I FINALLY saw him for the first time at the Avalon last year--even though I didn't get to walk up and introduce myself personally--I knew I wanted to make great art just the way he did. I wanted to inspire people the same way he did. Over the last few months I've covered my bedroom wall with L'arc and Hyde posters so every which way I turn when I'm in my room, when I go to sleep, when I wake up, I can see Hyde. His face reminds me that I need to wake up and write every day. Even if it's just a sentence, I need to write so that I can get that much closer to making art that Hyde would be proud of. Then I know I will have created something everyone can love and enjoy and be moved by.

(03-13-2011, 06:54 PM)vegetapr69 Wrote: For some odd reason, my ipod insists to put me "Hoshizora" every time I turn it on since Friday.

Hoshizora is L'arc en Ciel's BEST song in my opinion. I reference it in my book, but I call it "Starry Sky" instead. I've listened to that song so much over and over, especially over the last 6 months or so, that my sister was getting sick of it after awhile and she generally likes L'arc even when she's not too terribly fond of many other Japanese artists...

Sorry, lol! You got me going all emotional, too, and made me dig way deeper into my Hyde love than I've ever done before. It's all stuff I knew at a visceral level, but I've never actually written it out or said it to anyone.